a dark mystery
I cried out to her:
“When you cried I’d wipe away all of your tears
When you’d scream I’d fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me”
14 years of heaven and hell . . . the pain . . . the relief . . . the pain . . . the confusion . . . the pain, the never-ending burning in my gut . . . the hurting for her, for my children, for me . . .
I cried out:
“These wounds won’t seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There’s just too much that time cannot erase“
“When you cried I’d wipe away all of your tears
When you’d scream I’d fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me”
The hole in my heart will always be felt; it never really heals; the pain subsides but never goes away. This I know from having experienced this before.
. . . and life goes on . . . with or without her . . . with or without me . . .
What will I do?
What is next?
“Sometimes the best map will not guide you
You can’t see what’s round the bend
Sometimes the road leads through dark places
Sometimes the darkness is your friend”
Sometimes the darkness is my friend.
And life goes on . . . with or without me . . . but without her . . .
Will I get back on board? Yes but I don’t know how . . . yet
Life is one great big mystery . . . don’t tell me you have the answers. If you do, you just haven’t been asking any questions.
Maybe that’s it! Mysteries are quite intriguing . . . even when full of confusion and darkness.
WHAT IS NEXT???
Staring at the ceiling
as my ears fill up with tears
Gone from mystery into mystery
Gone from daylight into night
Another step deeper into darknessCloser to the light
We’ll see!
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- April 4, 2007 / 12:00 am
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- Living with open hands
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